Whoops!

Wow! I kinda forgot that I had made this. As you can see, I've gone a full month without a single post.
It's now Thursday, November 11th, 11:51am.
Lots has happened since my last post, obviously.


1. Connor died. :(


2. I'm now riding Red. She's been dressage trained, and she has the most amazing gaits you could imagine.
She hurt her foot and was limping for about a week, but she's all better now. :)  Her eye has issues, but we're not sure what's going on.


3. I started chemistry class with Mrs. Wainwright.  Since the first test, I'm actually not doing half-bad, although I have needed to call her for help twice.


4. The election.  Patty Murray won against Dino Rossi.  Republicans took the House of Representatives, but Democrats still control the Senate.


5. I started a history and a literature class, taught by someone named Mrs. Hinson.
I've already read:
Frankenstein
Jekyll and Hyde
The Deadliest Monster
I'm currently reading The Last Mohican.


6. We just finished the first review section of AWANA last night. I said it with one help.
I got to ride to the barn last night, although I didn't ride.  I hung out with my neighbor, and we did groundwork in the arena and groomed our horses. And i took a few pictures. :)


7. I have a photoshoot with one of Mom and Dad's employees pretty soon. I'll keep you posted. :)


8.  My boy gives me more time now. We've hashed out our problems and we're closer than ever. I'm happy. :)


-Lizzie Out. <3

badbadbad.

Well.... today is my boy's birthday.  So, you would think, do something special for him! Right?  You'd be wrong.  He was up all night because he had a bunch of difficult quizzes for classes today.  We didn't even have time to read the Bible together. :(  Then I got a Facebook message from my trainer, saying that she called the vet, and is going to have my horse be put down, as he's not getting any better over three weeks, and has taken a major turn for the worse.  He's losing weight from stress, his feet are so sore he can barely walk, and his coffin bone is rotated.  He was laying down in stall when I got there, but he managed to stand up as soon as I came over.  He seemed to cheer up a bit.  He had manure mixed in with his alfalfa, and several piles inside his stall, which is completely unlike him.  I brushed him out really well, and you could tell he was sore.  He put most of his weight on his back feet, and had his front feet out in front of him.  He seemed to be a little better after he'd been standing for a while, but not much. =/  Poor guy.  When you got up, you could see how much it hurt.  :(  Red, the other horse I love, did something to her eye, we don't know what.  
I still have a math lesson to do... we'll see how much I understand.  I finished mine last night at 1am. >_<  
Oh yeah, and Mom forgot to take my boy's letter into the office with her to mail it.  This day just gets better and better. At least there's AWANA tonight.... let's hope I'm not an emotional wreck for it. I'll get some much needed hugs, at least.

miserable.

Ughhhh!  I'm just miserable today.  My time started last night unexpectedly, and we didn't even have any stuff for me.  Only my mom's huge, bulky, uncomfortable ones.  I could barely fall asleep because my cramps were so bad, and Mom was mad at me for not knowing that we were out of my stuff, even though she keeps track of it in the shed. x( I don't even know where out there it is!  I'm exhausted, and have barely talked to my boy at all today.  I went back to my bedroom and took a two hour nap, and I'm still tired.  My boy won't be back anytime soon either... there's a dorm-wide party for the guys and girls to get together.  It's basically a singles night with mandatory participation. :( I'm not worried about him, I just wish we could talk.  I miss my sweetie so much!  My parents also decided that they don't really like him any more, so I don't know if I'll even get to see him this year. :'(  I sent my brothers outside for an hour and I barely got a half hour of peace. Christian tried to get Joseph sent in, and kept calling me.  Then Joseph was pounding on the door like he was going to die. And I couldn't get a hold of Dad for the longest time.  For some reason, he decided not to answer his cell phone, so I had to call the office and get the call transferred to him.  To top it off, my boy is struggling more than ever, personally, and I don't know how much longer I can take it.  He's not loving to me when he messes up, and he's trying to get me to be okay with that, and still give him pictures of me.  I don't think so.  I'm afraid that he's not pursuing God closely enough, but he tells me I'm annoying when I try to be the Christian I am and hold him accountable for it.  I still believe that God put us together as a pair, but it's really hard to be there for him.  I'm afraid that if I leave him, even temporarily, he'll never trust me again.  So many others have left him with broken promises.... I know he's afraid that I'll do the same.  I don't want to, but I'm afraid that I may have to for a time to get him to be serious about fighting his demons.  It's messing with his relationship with me and his relationship with God, and I don't think he understands how serious it is.  I love him, but I'm turning into an emotional wreck, and I can't live like this.
Pray for me?


The only two bright spots in this week have been my trips to the barn, on Wednesday and Thursday.  Even then, it's not totally happy.  Connor's feet are seriously sore, he can't be ridden.  Thankfully, he's back to himself character wise.  On Wednesday, I got to ride one of the rescue horses, Red, for the second time.  She is absolutely AMAZING!  I LOVE riding her so much.... I want to ride her more often, like, all the time!  She's obviously had dressage training.  She yields perfectly to rein and leg aids, and obeys wonderfully.  She's very friendly, and incredibly light to control.  She has the most gorgeous, perfect, jog, and loves to go!  It's awesome!  Thursday, all I got to do was brush out Connor and help out, but it's still fun. :)
-Lizzie out.

labor day.

 I'm so bummed!  It just deleted everything I had written.  And I had written a lot.  I guess I'll try to recreate it. :(


Upcoming Events:
9/11 anniversary on Saturday.
Also on Saturday is Murder Mystery Weekend in Port Orchard.
AWANA starts on the 22nd.
Chemistry will be on Fridays, starting in October.


Recent happenings:
Saturday, Joseph and I spent 3 hours chopping and stacking wood.  I did take a 15 minute break, during which time, I got to talk to my hubby on the phone! :D
Yesterday was amazing.  It began with a phone call at 6am (PST) from my boy, wanting to spend some quality time with me. :)  We talked for nearly an hour, then slept for another hour.  I woke up just as he did, and just in time to catch him online for a minute before he left for lunch. :)  Dad made our family a big breakfast (eggs and french toast....yummy!), and church was awesome.  I actually got to greet people again, for the first time in ages!  I had algebra tutoring after church...bleh.  But hey, it went really well, and I understand the next lessons much better now.  I wish I was better at math.  On the way home, Mom bought me two chicken sandwiches and a Hershey's pie at Burger King, which is a rare thing.  To top it off, when I got home, I logged in online at the same time as my man, and we got to talk for more hours! As a final treat, Dad made fresh salmon for supper! :)
Yesterday was a wonderful day.


Today, my brothers aren't behaving themselves very well, so they are both back in their bedroom at the moment, in time out.  The weather is just kinda....blah.  It's not raining, but it's overcast and windy.  However, it's a bright overcast, so I may try to squeeze in some photography today. :)  My sweetie has no classes, being it's Labor Day, but I still have schoolwork.  Mom and Dad decided to have us start school as long as they still have to work.  So to algebra it is.
-Lizzie out.

long time, no see

I apologize for not writing for such a length of time.  
Obviously, I am no longer sick.
Oh gosh... so much has happened since my last post.


1. I went trail riding. Yay!
2. AWANA Camp! :D I got to see my boy!
3. He came back and stayed here for a week.  I failed at taking a lot of pictures, again. x(  We only have one picture of the two of us, taken in the car on his way back home.  Mom and Dad had to work almost all week, so we mostly stayed home.  The first full day he was here, Sunday, we had a booth at a local event called the Port Orchard Cruz.  This involved old cars (not many though, poor weather), and lots of booths.  That day, the hubby and I walked to the local theater and saw Step Up 3, and I showed him around downtown.  That was awesome.  Thursday, we went for a hike in Staircase Forest.  I took a bunch of pictures there... it was a really nice trail.  The next Saturday, we had a booth at Allyn Days.  We pretty much hung around.  I saw a bunch of people from church, which was really nice, ate at McDonalds, and had a lot of Starbucks. :P  Sunday, we went to church, went to a friend's house for lunch, came home, packed up his stuff, and we left for Centralia, where we met his parents at the Nike Clearance store.  I did get some Nike clothes, which was nice, but then he only had a week and a half left....which brings me to my fourth point.
4. My boy left for college on August 25th! :'(  I spent a couple of days pretty torn up over it, missing him horribly, crying a lot.  Luckily, I'm doing better now.  His best friend has been really awesome to me, letting me talk about my boy all the time.
So now you're all caught up.
He'll be back for a week over Thanksgiving, and a week and a half over Christmas.  That's it.  Hopefully I'll see him at some point.  I miss him!
5. School is starting up again.  I'm going to be a sophomore, 10th grade.  Taking chemistry.  I'll be 16 in a few months.  Time flies.  My life is already speeding toward the future. I can't wait to be married to my sweetheart. <3
6. Last Saturday was the Kitsap County Fair.  I took a bunch of horse pictures and got to hang out with my homeschool friends, Patty, Anna, Nathan, and their friends, Amy and Briana (I think).
-Lizzie out. <3

sick.

Bleh, I'm sick.  I woke up early yesterday morning and that special time of the month had rolled around.  I spent the rest of the morning and part of the afternoon curled up in bed with horrible cramps.  I also have a stuffy nose and had a slightly sore throat.  My brothers fail at showing any kind of respect, so all I got all day was yelling and begging me to allow more time.


On a happier note.... my hubby is coming back today! :D  He had a summer retreat, and thought he'd be able to call, but unfortunately, didn't have cell service.  He at least borrowed others' phones to call me. :)  I've missed him so much. :(  I need my hubby back, even if he is only here for a day.


The weather is nasty today. x(  All rain and cloudiness.  I had to skip my last riding lesson until the 8th yesterday, because I was sick.  I really dislike being sick.  Now I'm hungry.
-Lizzie out.

bleh.

Bah. I can't wait for camp this year. I need a hug from my hubby. :(

He got home last night and we talked for an hour and a half before bed, then a few hours this morning, and once more to say good-bye as he was on a bus to his church's summer retreat until the 2nd of July. Then he's home for all of a day, leaving again on the 4th for a week camp. Then there's two weeks left until we have camp together. Then I have a week with him at home, then.... he's gone. For college. I may not see him until I can follow him in two or three years. And there's a three hour time difference too, so we won't have nearly as much time to talk. I miss him so much. He was really sweet to me last night and this morning... so much love we shared. I read him a list I've been working on, filled with reasons I love him. He cried when I was done, he loved it so much. He's been so good to me, I really couldn't ask for more. And yet right now, I'm filled with an intense, searing, pain of loss. I had forgotten he had this right away, so I was expecting/hoping to have him with me for a few night before he left again. No such luck. :( I love my hubby so much. I miss him horribly. :'( Riding tomorrow. Math today. Finished with CAT. I feel so horrible. I shouldn't miss him like this, not already. It's not even been 12 hours since we spoke. Yet I do.

Love hurts sometimes, even true, honest, pure, love.

Pray for me.

-Lizzie out.


edit;; Okay, now I doubly need prayer.  He just called me from a friend's cell that happened to have Verizon.  He has no cell coverage, and no internet access.  He said he might be able to borrow it again later, but no guarantees.  This is going to be more than 24 hours of no contact.
*cries*
Someone help me, please!

rodeo!

Yesterday afternoon, my trainer called and invited me to attend a rodeo with them, so I got to watch pole bending and barrel racing. That was definitely a TON of fun. I came 17 pictures away from filling up a 4GB memory card. :D Now I just have to upload the pictures.

My hubby is still gone for another three days. I miss him so much. :( He's so good to me.

We get to see Toy Story 3 in the theater today... that should be good. I hope I don't mis out on talking my hubby because of it though. I miss him so much. :(

-Lizzie out.

the days drag on.

Five days. Five long, arduous days until my hubby's return. I miss him so very much. :(

I'll most likely go horseback riding again this afternoon, as the weather appears to be gorgeous. I sure my best friend can log in either before I leave or after I get home. I think I might cry if I miss him. :( Maybe the barn will cheer me, although not likely. Last night was so difficult for me. I couldn't tell you why, but I acutely felt his absence last night. I clutched my pillow before falling asleep.

I got my brothers to do the first three sections of their CAT (California Achievement Test) yesterday.

Last night, a neighbor came over to catch their dog, who had broken off her leash during a walk. the dog took off through our woods, but they managed to catch her quite quickly.

Edit;; I was able to talk to my hubby today before the bar, although I did miss him when he was able to log in later. He's not feeling very well, he's sick! :'(

I miss my love.

On the bright side, I did get to go to the barn. :) My computer was being nasty and decided not to let me write the pictures I needed to give Mrs. Collier until after I got home, but I was able to ride for a few hours. Did some trail class stuff. :) No young rider today, for some odd reason. It was a gorgeous day, 70+ degrees. My neighbor drove me up, then I rode my bike back. :) Took care of the chickens' water, got Joseph to wash dishes, dried them and put them away, organized the dishes that were put away wrong, ate supper, and got everyone started again on their tests. Oh, and I brought in the rabbit from outside, refilled his water, and cleaned his litter box. Now to vacuum. :P

-Lizzie out.

lazy day?

Today, although it is a Tuesday, it will be a lazy day. We don't have a whole lot to do, just start our tests.

I miss my best friend!!!!! :'(

He didn't get to log in yesterday, so I'm now going on 48 hours without contact. :'(

CAT testing, here I come!

Hey, it's actually sunny out! :P

-Lizzie out.

i miss you. :(

Today, my hubby wasn't able to log in at all. I'm more disappointed than I thought I would be. I've gone 24+ hours without him twice this week. No crying...yet. I'm eating my supper, a mushy bowl of instant oatmeal and a glass of chocolate milk, then will fold a laundry and put my brothers to bed. I got to take some more pictures of Christian and finished editing the pictures from the barn. It's been a pretty stale, boring day. I wish my hubby were here. I miss him more than you could even imagine. :'( I just hope he's safe. I love him.

Whatever he's doing right now, I hope he's having fun and staying safe.

I love him so much.

-Lizzie out.

civil war.

My best friend, my other half, is still in another country. Luckily, we've been able to talk online for about an hour a day. I've managed to not cry at all. Nights are still super hard though. I miss him so much. I can't wait to see and hear him again. The sound of his voice in the morning and night will be a welcome returning presence in my life. :)

Yesterday, we got to attend a civil war reenactment after church. The reenactment was actually well done, although we made fun of a few characters for having a seemingly endless number of lives. The food was amazing-- I had some of the best chicken strips ever. Made from fresh, real, chicken breast, hand breaded as I ordered. There were deep fried Oreos and Snickers, which we have been unable to find for a few years. Those were also fantastic! Then we stopped off at Wal-Mart on our way home. Mom bought me a couple shirts, some nail polish (although I rarely use it) and Glenn Beck's new thriller, The Overton Window I highly recommend it! :D Also, Mom and Dad decided to pay me $150.00 for my old Canon Powershot, which means I now have enough money for a 75-300mm lens that I've been wanting. However, I'm now wondering if I should wait and save up for an 18-200mm lens, or possibly a 55-200mm. It's only about another hundred dollars. Then again, I should really be saving for college, since Mom and Dad have nothing saved for me at all, and I want to attend college with my husband.

Opinions, even though no one reads this? :P

-Lizzie out.

P.S. Pictures from the reenactment are coming, as are a few from the barn. :)

gone again.

Yesterday was my first full day without my other half. I talked to him at 7:30 yesterday morning as they were taking off from the Houston, TX airport. While he's gone, we can't talk on the phone, only online-- if he's able to find a connection. It doesn't appear he was able to find one yesterday. :'( We've now gone 26 hours without contact. We've never gone this long since I met him! Which, now that I think about it, really says how much we love each other. At any rate, I miss him horribly. I really, really, hope he can find internet today. If he doesn't find anything today, I'm going to be extremely disappointed. I don't know how I'll survive a week and a half of no contact. I just pray that God keeps him safe and healthy.

I love my best friend more than anything in the world. I already can't wait for him to come back.

-Lizzie out.

P.S. I was supposed to trail ride today, but it's raining and Mrs. Collier forgot she had another rider coming, so I'm not trail riding now. Possibly tomorrow.

=/

Hopefully the weather will be better.

youth group.

Today, my boyfriend left for a missions trip to another country, where he will be for a week and a half. :'( During that time, we can't use the phone at all, and can only talk online sparingly, due to their schedule. I know, it's a good thing he's doing. He's going to have a blast and learn a lot, but I sure wish I was with him. :( I didn't even get to tell him a proper good bye, because my brothers were being idiots. By the time I finally got to walk to my bedroom, he had to leave for the airport. At least I got a quick "Love you too" from him during my youth group break tonight. Of all nights, tonight the youth pastor decided to talk about dating/courtship. All I could think the entire time was how special he is, and how he fits every quality a spouse is supposed to have. I wanted to speak up, to talk to the youth pastor and the rest of the kids. I wanted to explain to them how God will always bring someone into your life if it's in His plan. I wanted to explain that they don't need to worry about it, and that they'll know it when they meet "the one." I wanted to tell them how wonderful God is, and how amazing the guy is whom God has blessed me with. But I didn't. Someday, I'll have the courage to tell Pastor Kyle just how important my guy is to me. I'll have the courage to ask him to meet with my guy and I, and counsel us. I'll have the courage to ask what he thinks about performing a wedding in a few years. Twenty years away it is not. Just a small three for me. You know, I can't wait for that day.

I love my boy.

-Lizzie out.

brrrrr! cold!

It's freezing today! And I have to ride my bike up to the barn, as it doesn't appear that Mrs. Collier has called off riding today. I'm wearing a long-sleeve shirt and a poncho, and I'm still cold. And tired.

My boy and I had a fight last night. :( It's all good now, by 12:30 early this morning, we had it straightened out. We both apologized, and he gave me lots of extra love to make up for it.

Weather is nasty. It's gray and cold, and cloudy. Eugh.

Think that's about all for now.

I thank God for keeping us close as a couple.

-Lizzie out.

back in town! :D

My hubby is back! :D :D :D I got to talk to him last night for about an hour, plus a little time this morning. He was really tired.

He was in bed even before me last night! He beat me! xD

*sigh*

I'm so in love with him.

Not too much going on today. I get to trail ride again this Saturday, and we're playing with Evan and Nathan this afternoon for a couple of hours. Think that's about it.

God is amazing.

-Lizzie out.

partial clouds.

I fail at interesting titling, obviously. Today's weather is not very warm at all. :( It's cloudy and dark-ish, just 57 degrees, compared to yesterdays 75 degrees and sunny.

No riding today. :(

I got a job! Next Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I'm taking care of two horses belonging to someone from church while they're on vacation. I only need to take care of two feedings a day, there's no mucking to do, and I get paid for it! Oh, and they only live two miles away. :D

My hubby comes back today! :D :D :D

I've missed him so much. :(

I think that's about all the news for today; it's kinda a boring day.

-Lizzie out.

church.

Today, I had church in the morning. We were up bright and early to attend first service. :) We were on our way home from church when Dad called and asked if we wanted to have lunch with him at IHOP. He'd been at drill duty, but was released on lunch break for an hour. After that, Mom offered to take us to Wal-Mart and the mall, since were close enough. Wal-Mart was first, where I got a pair of capris, a swimsuit, a pair of shorts, and a couple of shirts. Then came Old Navy. I bought a pair of capris and a few t-shirts. At the mall, I got a skirt, another pair of capris, and another shirt. We finally drove home, where I've been relaxing ever since.

I missed a phone call from my wonderful boy, unfortunately. I haven't gotten to hear his voice even once today, although we did at least get to speak online for about half an hour. He's having a blast! I messed up. I thought he was coming home today, but he's not coming back until tomorrow. I miss him!!!!! :'(

One more day, just one more day.

Then I have two more days.

Then two weeks without.

Then five days.

Then a week without.

Then he's around until college. :)

I can't live without him in my life. I'm so glad we're getting married in a few years! :D I can hardly wait!

-Lizzie out.

trail ride! :D

I left my house this morning at 7:15, and my trainer and I drove about an hour away for a trail ride with the local saddle club. It's a gorgeous day for riding! :D Not a cloud in the sky, and 72 degrees in the shade! :D :D :D The ride was excellent; we saw lots of people we knew along the trail, galloped once, and trotted quite a bit of it. Lots of deep puddles, but since no one has an issue with water (I rode Jags instead of Connor) it was just great. :) My hubby tried to call me once, so even though it was after the ride, there was no cell service. I tried calling him back a couple hours later, when I got home, but there was no answer. :( After the ride, we had hot dogs, chips, and pop with the group. I drank my personal favorite, Dr. Pepper.

If I can survive today without my boy (it's actually looking pretty good-- I haven't cried yet! :P ) then I only have to wait until he gets home tomorrow! :D

I've missed him so much.

Then I have just three more days with him before he is gone for two weeks on a mission trip in another country! Now that will be hard. :(

Oh well.

I have to learn.

Summary: Trail ride went great, it's a gorgeous day, and my boy comes home tomorrow! :D

-Lizzie out.

great.

Well, today there is no rain.

I did go up to the barn yesterday after all! We reviewed beginning stuff because there was a new rider and cleaned up all the horses really nice. Finally, about 6pm, it cleared up, so we went over lead line stuff in the arena. :D That was fun. Connor was having attitude issues though. :( Luckily, my neighbor was kind enough to drive me there and home so I didn't have to worry about riding my bike in the rain.

In other news....

Last night, my boyfriend's parents were upset at him again for the amount of minutes on his phone. so now we have to cut our time even more, even though we cut it 2000 minutes between last month and this month. x( At least he's still willing to talk in the morning and at night. :) He's so good to me. Even when his parents are upset, he still tries to be understanding to me. Gosh, I love him. Unfortunately, I dunno how much I'll be able to see him before he leaves for college this fall now. At least once, but maybe not more than that. :( Stupid camp rules. I want to hang out with him! D: I don't know who to drag with me, as I don't know anyone at camp well enough to know if I can trust them with PDA between my sweetie and me. :(

Oh well.

*sigh*

Only a few more years, then we can be married. :D I so can't wait for that day.

Note: I have youth group and Truth Project tonight, that should be good. And I can't even talk to my hubby right now. :( He should be home by now, or just getting home, but he hasn't logged in yet. I know he had a lot to do though, and he has to pack up too, as he's going to a theme park tomorrow. I've been there a few times and it's a fantastic place. He'll love it! But I'll be missing him. :(

Can't be helped.

I still thank God for giving me such a wonderful hubby, even if we have to endure much hardship before we can be together.

-Lizzie out.

rain, rain, go away!

Today, it is raining, as it often does in western Washington. I would normally be found at the barn on a Wednesday afternoon, but it doesn't look like I'll be there today because of this stupid rain. I mean, seriously, it's June! Could it be a little bit warmer?!

Anyway, here I sit. I'm working on my algebra and talking to my man, who is preparing for his final final right now. I actually got up a bit earlier today. I need to get back into the habit of trying to get up at 6:30 if I can. Otherwise, I'll be exhausted at camp this summer. :( Oh well. On the bright side, I'll be going to bed an hour earlier than usual. :P

I'll have lots of study time the next couple of weeks. :( I have to survive without my boyfriend for about 3 weeks. I can still talk to him in and out, but just infrequently. He's going to a theme park for his senior trip, then on a missions trip, then to a summer camp. Then I have a month before he goes to college across the country. It's really depressing. x( It's okay though, I know we'll make it through. We have God and each other. At the end of two years, we get to be together at college, then in three, we'll be married! :D I don't know about you, but that's a very exciting prospect to us. :) God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams.

-Lizzie out.

P.S. No, you don't get pictures of me or my hubby. At least not yet. Maybe in a (much) later post.

P.P.S. Did you know that P.S. stands for "post script?" Well, now you do! :P

tuesdays.

My typical Tuesday during the school year was nice. Get up, get ready for the day, leave for Washington State History class at 9:45am to get to the teacher's home by 10am. Class until noon. Come home and eat lunch. Hurry through math lesson. Finish up assignments for High School Biology and High School English classes the next day. Eat supper. Do chores. Watch Glenn Beck with Dad. Go to bed.

My typical Tuesday now is much calmer. All that's required of me is to get up and get ready for the day, complete my math, make meals, do my chores, watch my brothers (oh yeah, I haven't mentioned them yet).

I have two brothers. Their names are Christian and Joseph. Joseph is 11 years old, and in a rebellious, violent, and rude, child. Christian is 13, and tries to behave himself for the most part. They both make it quite difficult to watch them at times. See, in a day, I have to break up fights that cause bloody noses and scratches if left unheeded, confiscate Airsoft rifles which are being shot at each other and into walls, and nag about completing chores, putting away leftovers, and doing their assigned dishes duty.

Basically, I act like their mom while Mom is at work.

Any other questions?
Being a mom is a lot harder than it seems. See, my duties also typically include taking care of our Angora Fuzzy Lop rabbit, whose name is Peter. If I don't watch him, he will eat through cords, go into bedrooms, hide under beds, and leave rabbit turds around the house. When he does this, it is also my responsibility to clean up the mess. In addition, if he wants water, you must hand water him while he's inside. This is also my job.
Finally, if my brothers neglect to finish their assigned chores during the day, or if the assigned chores did not clean the house to a point of spotlessness, I have to finish everything left. Is it hard? Yes. Do I like it? Not always. In fact, there are days when I question why I want kids myself someday. When it comes down to the end of the day though, I realize that I love my brothers, regardless of what they might do to me. I realize that this is just extra practice from God, preparing me for the life of a homeschool mom.
I realize that he didn't just give me the stress of fulfilling motherly-type duties to deal with on my own. In His perfect timing, He introduced a man to me who will be my husband. This young man brightens up my day, and when the boys are at their worst, he comforts me. Even though we're never together in person, he's kept me sane and pulled me through so many hard days. How many guys do you know that would let you cry to them on the phone for half an hour, and just be there for you. Remind you of their love over and over? God has blessed me. (:-Lizzie out.
P.S. Pictures of our rabbit and of my brothers will come soon. :)
edit;; Check out the "Pets" tab for a picture of Peter, and the "Snapshots" tab for a picture of each of my brothers.

getting started.

For a long time, I've wanted to start a blog or journal/diary thing and actually keep up with it. I've decided that it's more convenient for me to fill this in online. Hopefully I'll remember this one better than I remember my old accounts. I have two, but I can't remember the logins for either. :( I've changed e-mails too. Totally different, new account. Same old me.

I love this life that is mine to live for God. :)