bleh.

Bah. I can't wait for camp this year. I need a hug from my hubby. :(

He got home last night and we talked for an hour and a half before bed, then a few hours this morning, and once more to say good-bye as he was on a bus to his church's summer retreat until the 2nd of July. Then he's home for all of a day, leaving again on the 4th for a week camp. Then there's two weeks left until we have camp together. Then I have a week with him at home, then.... he's gone. For college. I may not see him until I can follow him in two or three years. And there's a three hour time difference too, so we won't have nearly as much time to talk. I miss him so much. He was really sweet to me last night and this morning... so much love we shared. I read him a list I've been working on, filled with reasons I love him. He cried when I was done, he loved it so much. He's been so good to me, I really couldn't ask for more. And yet right now, I'm filled with an intense, searing, pain of loss. I had forgotten he had this right away, so I was expecting/hoping to have him with me for a few night before he left again. No such luck. :( I love my hubby so much. I miss him horribly. :'( Riding tomorrow. Math today. Finished with CAT. I feel so horrible. I shouldn't miss him like this, not already. It's not even been 12 hours since we spoke. Yet I do.

Love hurts sometimes, even true, honest, pure, love.

Pray for me.

-Lizzie out.


edit;; Okay, now I doubly need prayer.  He just called me from a friend's cell that happened to have Verizon.  He has no cell coverage, and no internet access.  He said he might be able to borrow it again later, but no guarantees.  This is going to be more than 24 hours of no contact.
*cries*
Someone help me, please!