bleh.

Bah. I can't wait for camp this year. I need a hug from my hubby. :(

He got home last night and we talked for an hour and a half before bed, then a few hours this morning, and once more to say good-bye as he was on a bus to his church's summer retreat until the 2nd of July. Then he's home for all of a day, leaving again on the 4th for a week camp. Then there's two weeks left until we have camp together. Then I have a week with him at home, then.... he's gone. For college. I may not see him until I can follow him in two or three years. And there's a three hour time difference too, so we won't have nearly as much time to talk. I miss him so much. He was really sweet to me last night and this morning... so much love we shared. I read him a list I've been working on, filled with reasons I love him. He cried when I was done, he loved it so much. He's been so good to me, I really couldn't ask for more. And yet right now, I'm filled with an intense, searing, pain of loss. I had forgotten he had this right away, so I was expecting/hoping to have him with me for a few night before he left again. No such luck. :( I love my hubby so much. I miss him horribly. :'( Riding tomorrow. Math today. Finished with CAT. I feel so horrible. I shouldn't miss him like this, not already. It's not even been 12 hours since we spoke. Yet I do.

Love hurts sometimes, even true, honest, pure, love.

Pray for me.

-Lizzie out.


edit;; Okay, now I doubly need prayer.  He just called me from a friend's cell that happened to have Verizon.  He has no cell coverage, and no internet access.  He said he might be able to borrow it again later, but no guarantees.  This is going to be more than 24 hours of no contact.
*cries*
Someone help me, please!

rodeo!

Yesterday afternoon, my trainer called and invited me to attend a rodeo with them, so I got to watch pole bending and barrel racing. That was definitely a TON of fun. I came 17 pictures away from filling up a 4GB memory card. :D Now I just have to upload the pictures.

My hubby is still gone for another three days. I miss him so much. :( He's so good to me.

We get to see Toy Story 3 in the theater today... that should be good. I hope I don't mis out on talking my hubby because of it though. I miss him so much. :(

-Lizzie out.

the days drag on.

Five days. Five long, arduous days until my hubby's return. I miss him so very much. :(

I'll most likely go horseback riding again this afternoon, as the weather appears to be gorgeous. I sure my best friend can log in either before I leave or after I get home. I think I might cry if I miss him. :( Maybe the barn will cheer me, although not likely. Last night was so difficult for me. I couldn't tell you why, but I acutely felt his absence last night. I clutched my pillow before falling asleep.

I got my brothers to do the first three sections of their CAT (California Achievement Test) yesterday.

Last night, a neighbor came over to catch their dog, who had broken off her leash during a walk. the dog took off through our woods, but they managed to catch her quite quickly.

Edit;; I was able to talk to my hubby today before the bar, although I did miss him when he was able to log in later. He's not feeling very well, he's sick! :'(

I miss my love.

On the bright side, I did get to go to the barn. :) My computer was being nasty and decided not to let me write the pictures I needed to give Mrs. Collier until after I got home, but I was able to ride for a few hours. Did some trail class stuff. :) No young rider today, for some odd reason. It was a gorgeous day, 70+ degrees. My neighbor drove me up, then I rode my bike back. :) Took care of the chickens' water, got Joseph to wash dishes, dried them and put them away, organized the dishes that were put away wrong, ate supper, and got everyone started again on their tests. Oh, and I brought in the rabbit from outside, refilled his water, and cleaned his litter box. Now to vacuum. :P

-Lizzie out.

lazy day?

Today, although it is a Tuesday, it will be a lazy day. We don't have a whole lot to do, just start our tests.

I miss my best friend!!!!! :'(

He didn't get to log in yesterday, so I'm now going on 48 hours without contact. :'(

CAT testing, here I come!

Hey, it's actually sunny out! :P

-Lizzie out.

i miss you. :(

Today, my hubby wasn't able to log in at all. I'm more disappointed than I thought I would be. I've gone 24+ hours without him twice this week. No crying...yet. I'm eating my supper, a mushy bowl of instant oatmeal and a glass of chocolate milk, then will fold a laundry and put my brothers to bed. I got to take some more pictures of Christian and finished editing the pictures from the barn. It's been a pretty stale, boring day. I wish my hubby were here. I miss him more than you could even imagine. :'( I just hope he's safe. I love him.

Whatever he's doing right now, I hope he's having fun and staying safe.

I love him so much.

-Lizzie out.

civil war.

My best friend, my other half, is still in another country. Luckily, we've been able to talk online for about an hour a day. I've managed to not cry at all. Nights are still super hard though. I miss him so much. I can't wait to see and hear him again. The sound of his voice in the morning and night will be a welcome returning presence in my life. :)

Yesterday, we got to attend a civil war reenactment after church. The reenactment was actually well done, although we made fun of a few characters for having a seemingly endless number of lives. The food was amazing-- I had some of the best chicken strips ever. Made from fresh, real, chicken breast, hand breaded as I ordered. There were deep fried Oreos and Snickers, which we have been unable to find for a few years. Those were also fantastic! Then we stopped off at Wal-Mart on our way home. Mom bought me a couple shirts, some nail polish (although I rarely use it) and Glenn Beck's new thriller, The Overton Window I highly recommend it! :D Also, Mom and Dad decided to pay me $150.00 for my old Canon Powershot, which means I now have enough money for a 75-300mm lens that I've been wanting. However, I'm now wondering if I should wait and save up for an 18-200mm lens, or possibly a 55-200mm. It's only about another hundred dollars. Then again, I should really be saving for college, since Mom and Dad have nothing saved for me at all, and I want to attend college with my husband.

Opinions, even though no one reads this? :P

-Lizzie out.

P.S. Pictures from the reenactment are coming, as are a few from the barn. :)

gone again.

Yesterday was my first full day without my other half. I talked to him at 7:30 yesterday morning as they were taking off from the Houston, TX airport. While he's gone, we can't talk on the phone, only online-- if he's able to find a connection. It doesn't appear he was able to find one yesterday. :'( We've now gone 26 hours without contact. We've never gone this long since I met him! Which, now that I think about it, really says how much we love each other. At any rate, I miss him horribly. I really, really, hope he can find internet today. If he doesn't find anything today, I'm going to be extremely disappointed. I don't know how I'll survive a week and a half of no contact. I just pray that God keeps him safe and healthy.

I love my best friend more than anything in the world. I already can't wait for him to come back.

-Lizzie out.

P.S. I was supposed to trail ride today, but it's raining and Mrs. Collier forgot she had another rider coming, so I'm not trail riding now. Possibly tomorrow.

=/

Hopefully the weather will be better.

youth group.

Today, my boyfriend left for a missions trip to another country, where he will be for a week and a half. :'( During that time, we can't use the phone at all, and can only talk online sparingly, due to their schedule. I know, it's a good thing he's doing. He's going to have a blast and learn a lot, but I sure wish I was with him. :( I didn't even get to tell him a proper good bye, because my brothers were being idiots. By the time I finally got to walk to my bedroom, he had to leave for the airport. At least I got a quick "Love you too" from him during my youth group break tonight. Of all nights, tonight the youth pastor decided to talk about dating/courtship. All I could think the entire time was how special he is, and how he fits every quality a spouse is supposed to have. I wanted to speak up, to talk to the youth pastor and the rest of the kids. I wanted to explain to them how God will always bring someone into your life if it's in His plan. I wanted to explain that they don't need to worry about it, and that they'll know it when they meet "the one." I wanted to tell them how wonderful God is, and how amazing the guy is whom God has blessed me with. But I didn't. Someday, I'll have the courage to tell Pastor Kyle just how important my guy is to me. I'll have the courage to ask him to meet with my guy and I, and counsel us. I'll have the courage to ask what he thinks about performing a wedding in a few years. Twenty years away it is not. Just a small three for me. You know, I can't wait for that day.

I love my boy.

-Lizzie out.

brrrrr! cold!

It's freezing today! And I have to ride my bike up to the barn, as it doesn't appear that Mrs. Collier has called off riding today. I'm wearing a long-sleeve shirt and a poncho, and I'm still cold. And tired.

My boy and I had a fight last night. :( It's all good now, by 12:30 early this morning, we had it straightened out. We both apologized, and he gave me lots of extra love to make up for it.

Weather is nasty. It's gray and cold, and cloudy. Eugh.

Think that's about all for now.

I thank God for keeping us close as a couple.

-Lizzie out.

back in town! :D

My hubby is back! :D :D :D I got to talk to him last night for about an hour, plus a little time this morning. He was really tired.

He was in bed even before me last night! He beat me! xD

*sigh*

I'm so in love with him.

Not too much going on today. I get to trail ride again this Saturday, and we're playing with Evan and Nathan this afternoon for a couple of hours. Think that's about it.

God is amazing.

-Lizzie out.

partial clouds.

I fail at interesting titling, obviously. Today's weather is not very warm at all. :( It's cloudy and dark-ish, just 57 degrees, compared to yesterdays 75 degrees and sunny.

No riding today. :(

I got a job! Next Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I'm taking care of two horses belonging to someone from church while they're on vacation. I only need to take care of two feedings a day, there's no mucking to do, and I get paid for it! Oh, and they only live two miles away. :D

My hubby comes back today! :D :D :D

I've missed him so much. :(

I think that's about all the news for today; it's kinda a boring day.

-Lizzie out.

church.

Today, I had church in the morning. We were up bright and early to attend first service. :) We were on our way home from church when Dad called and asked if we wanted to have lunch with him at IHOP. He'd been at drill duty, but was released on lunch break for an hour. After that, Mom offered to take us to Wal-Mart and the mall, since were close enough. Wal-Mart was first, where I got a pair of capris, a swimsuit, a pair of shorts, and a couple of shirts. Then came Old Navy. I bought a pair of capris and a few t-shirts. At the mall, I got a skirt, another pair of capris, and another shirt. We finally drove home, where I've been relaxing ever since.

I missed a phone call from my wonderful boy, unfortunately. I haven't gotten to hear his voice even once today, although we did at least get to speak online for about half an hour. He's having a blast! I messed up. I thought he was coming home today, but he's not coming back until tomorrow. I miss him!!!!! :'(

One more day, just one more day.

Then I have two more days.

Then two weeks without.

Then five days.

Then a week without.

Then he's around until college. :)

I can't live without him in my life. I'm so glad we're getting married in a few years! :D I can hardly wait!

-Lizzie out.

trail ride! :D

I left my house this morning at 7:15, and my trainer and I drove about an hour away for a trail ride with the local saddle club. It's a gorgeous day for riding! :D Not a cloud in the sky, and 72 degrees in the shade! :D :D :D The ride was excellent; we saw lots of people we knew along the trail, galloped once, and trotted quite a bit of it. Lots of deep puddles, but since no one has an issue with water (I rode Jags instead of Connor) it was just great. :) My hubby tried to call me once, so even though it was after the ride, there was no cell service. I tried calling him back a couple hours later, when I got home, but there was no answer. :( After the ride, we had hot dogs, chips, and pop with the group. I drank my personal favorite, Dr. Pepper.

If I can survive today without my boy (it's actually looking pretty good-- I haven't cried yet! :P ) then I only have to wait until he gets home tomorrow! :D

I've missed him so much.

Then I have just three more days with him before he is gone for two weeks on a mission trip in another country! Now that will be hard. :(

Oh well.

I have to learn.

Summary: Trail ride went great, it's a gorgeous day, and my boy comes home tomorrow! :D

-Lizzie out.

great.

Well, today there is no rain.

I did go up to the barn yesterday after all! We reviewed beginning stuff because there was a new rider and cleaned up all the horses really nice. Finally, about 6pm, it cleared up, so we went over lead line stuff in the arena. :D That was fun. Connor was having attitude issues though. :( Luckily, my neighbor was kind enough to drive me there and home so I didn't have to worry about riding my bike in the rain.

In other news....

Last night, my boyfriend's parents were upset at him again for the amount of minutes on his phone. so now we have to cut our time even more, even though we cut it 2000 minutes between last month and this month. x( At least he's still willing to talk in the morning and at night. :) He's so good to me. Even when his parents are upset, he still tries to be understanding to me. Gosh, I love him. Unfortunately, I dunno how much I'll be able to see him before he leaves for college this fall now. At least once, but maybe not more than that. :( Stupid camp rules. I want to hang out with him! D: I don't know who to drag with me, as I don't know anyone at camp well enough to know if I can trust them with PDA between my sweetie and me. :(

Oh well.

*sigh*

Only a few more years, then we can be married. :D I so can't wait for that day.

Note: I have youth group and Truth Project tonight, that should be good. And I can't even talk to my hubby right now. :( He should be home by now, or just getting home, but he hasn't logged in yet. I know he had a lot to do though, and he has to pack up too, as he's going to a theme park tomorrow. I've been there a few times and it's a fantastic place. He'll love it! But I'll be missing him. :(

Can't be helped.

I still thank God for giving me such a wonderful hubby, even if we have to endure much hardship before we can be together.

-Lizzie out.

rain, rain, go away!

Today, it is raining, as it often does in western Washington. I would normally be found at the barn on a Wednesday afternoon, but it doesn't look like I'll be there today because of this stupid rain. I mean, seriously, it's June! Could it be a little bit warmer?!

Anyway, here I sit. I'm working on my algebra and talking to my man, who is preparing for his final final right now. I actually got up a bit earlier today. I need to get back into the habit of trying to get up at 6:30 if I can. Otherwise, I'll be exhausted at camp this summer. :( Oh well. On the bright side, I'll be going to bed an hour earlier than usual. :P

I'll have lots of study time the next couple of weeks. :( I have to survive without my boyfriend for about 3 weeks. I can still talk to him in and out, but just infrequently. He's going to a theme park for his senior trip, then on a missions trip, then to a summer camp. Then I have a month before he goes to college across the country. It's really depressing. x( It's okay though, I know we'll make it through. We have God and each other. At the end of two years, we get to be together at college, then in three, we'll be married! :D I don't know about you, but that's a very exciting prospect to us. :) God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams.

-Lizzie out.

P.S. No, you don't get pictures of me or my hubby. At least not yet. Maybe in a (much) later post.

P.P.S. Did you know that P.S. stands for "post script?" Well, now you do! :P

tuesdays.

My typical Tuesday during the school year was nice. Get up, get ready for the day, leave for Washington State History class at 9:45am to get to the teacher's home by 10am. Class until noon. Come home and eat lunch. Hurry through math lesson. Finish up assignments for High School Biology and High School English classes the next day. Eat supper. Do chores. Watch Glenn Beck with Dad. Go to bed.

My typical Tuesday now is much calmer. All that's required of me is to get up and get ready for the day, complete my math, make meals, do my chores, watch my brothers (oh yeah, I haven't mentioned them yet).

I have two brothers. Their names are Christian and Joseph. Joseph is 11 years old, and in a rebellious, violent, and rude, child. Christian is 13, and tries to behave himself for the most part. They both make it quite difficult to watch them at times. See, in a day, I have to break up fights that cause bloody noses and scratches if left unheeded, confiscate Airsoft rifles which are being shot at each other and into walls, and nag about completing chores, putting away leftovers, and doing their assigned dishes duty.

Basically, I act like their mom while Mom is at work.

Any other questions?
Being a mom is a lot harder than it seems. See, my duties also typically include taking care of our Angora Fuzzy Lop rabbit, whose name is Peter. If I don't watch him, he will eat through cords, go into bedrooms, hide under beds, and leave rabbit turds around the house. When he does this, it is also my responsibility to clean up the mess. In addition, if he wants water, you must hand water him while he's inside. This is also my job.
Finally, if my brothers neglect to finish their assigned chores during the day, or if the assigned chores did not clean the house to a point of spotlessness, I have to finish everything left. Is it hard? Yes. Do I like it? Not always. In fact, there are days when I question why I want kids myself someday. When it comes down to the end of the day though, I realize that I love my brothers, regardless of what they might do to me. I realize that this is just extra practice from God, preparing me for the life of a homeschool mom.
I realize that he didn't just give me the stress of fulfilling motherly-type duties to deal with on my own. In His perfect timing, He introduced a man to me who will be my husband. This young man brightens up my day, and when the boys are at their worst, he comforts me. Even though we're never together in person, he's kept me sane and pulled me through so many hard days. How many guys do you know that would let you cry to them on the phone for half an hour, and just be there for you. Remind you of their love over and over? God has blessed me. (:-Lizzie out.
P.S. Pictures of our rabbit and of my brothers will come soon. :)
edit;; Check out the "Pets" tab for a picture of Peter, and the "Snapshots" tab for a picture of each of my brothers.

getting started.

For a long time, I've wanted to start a blog or journal/diary thing and actually keep up with it. I've decided that it's more convenient for me to fill this in online. Hopefully I'll remember this one better than I remember my old accounts. I have two, but I can't remember the logins for either. :( I've changed e-mails too. Totally different, new account. Same old me.

I love this life that is mine to live for God. :)